Who am I kidding

I have taken another step in my life but this step is going backwards.
Have you ever felt like you been somewhere before and the first time it was a complete disaster, this is going to be even worse. It’s like living the groundhog story over and over again. A wheel that you can never get off, it just keeps on going around. Why does this happen to people like myself? How do I stop it and get off!!? I wish I could only be like everyone else who enjoys life and what it has to offer. Are my hopes and dreams so out of reach that they are not attainable? I hope not, for I wish not for me but for others I would like to help but I can’t unless I can help myself. That’s what I find so hard to do. Every time I try I fail. Am I only kidding myself?

Herb